Getting Older: WTF Yo...!!!

So here I am on a mid Wednesday after noon... Just chilln at this really kick ass spot in Seminole Heights... Which is in Tampa for all you non-Tampons... Anyhow, its a dope little beer house with a good number of quality stuff on tap as well as a huge variety of bottled beer too... And in addition to those gastric nectors they also have the best bar/cafe food around... seriously..!! crazy good... so if you're ever just South of Hillsborough on Florida... check it out yo...!!

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Ok now on to biggy and better things... Well I guess that's more of a perspective thing right..?? Big to me, small to you..??? Tomato or Toe-mato...???

I think its funny how in certain respects we can feel like we know 'too much' and then in literally hours we can feel the exact opposite... "I don't know shit..!!"

Am I alone on this one...??

Don't want to be to verbose because I'm highly capable of that at times... I think its a genetic thing (thanks Dad..!!)

Anyhow, today I was thinking about a few things. More personal in nature I guess. I 'm sure you already know that 'age' and 'time' are a couple strange cats... I mean my mind is stuck in this fairly small, seemingly self contained, little world... I experience things in a very unique way just as the next person... now the interesting thing is time really doesn't exert any undue force upon us when you really think about it... now the experience of time and the experience of this moment to the next is what illuminates the tapestry of time... I mean what happens if a individual, god forbid, lived a whole lifetime without any exposure to outside stimulus; that being the catalyst for experience and context....??? Would age or time exert more force upon the individual in terms of the process of a slow physical decline...?? Could he or she perceive the aging process...?? Now I'm highly doubtful this experiment would even work because this individual would most likely die with out human contact but for the sake of this mental experiment lets just say it is possible...

That was a little off topic but somehow I feel it is related... Anyhow, what I'm dealing with now is the juxtaposition between this concept of aging in conjunction with the experience of time elapsed... I know the body ages but what happens to our minds...?? and I'm not talking about the physiological effects, nor even the psychological/cognitive effects, of aging upon the brain but rather something more related to ones perception of reality... How does it change and does it change and what spurs on change in that respect...?? I know it does change but I have a gut hunch there's a pattern to all this...

Put is this way... As one ages how does one perceive that aging/changing in respect to their world view, their understanding of morals/ethics, to their level of tolerance or intolerance, to their level of concern for their fellow man...?? as we age do our minds and attitudes change to a level that benefits the soul...??? Do the changes we allow to take place within our hearts and minds do they really assist us in our understanding of joy, happiness, and contentment...???

I know this is kind of a personal thing... I mean it sounds like its one of those "well it would be up to that person how he or she would allow them selves to change" and I would agree to a large degree on that conclusion....

However... I think there's more to it than that... FREE WILL is a very debatable topic... it drives us nuts to the very core of who we are as a species but the fundamentals of the question -Does free will exist? - remains largely unanswered....

So here I am, 32, feeling sorta old but knowing I'm not... I'm left in this lingering fog of doubt that has subtly seeped into the peaks and valleys of my mind... Obscuring what I once thought so strongly about and calling into question the many paths, routes and hidden doorways I've decided to navigate in these last few years of aging... I know all the sights and sounds during these navigations down new and novel roads and destinations has rendered an affect and change in my person and mind... now the question is... have those changes benefited me...?? and if not where do I go from here....??

I wrote something down in my phone last week that just popped into my mind:

"I need to get lost again, because I haven't found anything new in a long time"



Ok.... That's it for me...


Another slig to light and another daydream to ponder...